How my life changed after meeting my Guru Mohanji! How did his teachings and processes transform my life?

This is a humble attempt to pen my spiritual experiences. Probably this is more for me than for any audience, in order to continuously re-iterate the fact that I have been graced by the almighty in unlimited ways. What more grace can we expect in life, than meeting an enlightened master and be in close proximity after a long search for a Guru. We have often heard that – We don’t find the Guru, but the Guru finds us. And this has exactly been my experience.

I was for one, never a religious person and mostly not of rituals too. I wouldn’t follow them, until I knew their meaning. I dint follow them, since they dint give me any real time experience. I dint pray much to any particular God, since I dint feel the connect. Even now my only connect is with the Guru. He will lead the way to Gods abode.

I have always been spiritual though, now that I look back. But the quest actually started when my father expired when I was 21 years of age. My world fell apart. What I thought is something permanent, that is my father’s protection, was suddenly not there. That person is not there. Where did he go? It was abrupt. I was suddenly angry, extremely sad, surprised and a lot of other emotions, all mixed up at once. How can this happen to us? Is there really a God whom my father has gone to? That’s when the longing to know the secret of life and after life intensified within and hence began my journey. I started reading a lot of books on spirituality and trying to find the answer on who this God really is? If he is there why doesn’t he come in front of us, answer my questions, see to it that I am well taken care of (if he really is my creator) , if a calamity happens where/whom should I turn to? Some people or places I turned to, dint give me satisfactory answers.

So I was angry with God. How can he create us and leave us to suffer? Why can’t I talk to him directly? How can he be immune to our sufferings? If the entire cosmos was a result of his leela, why should we suffer for his leela. Many more such ignorant/arrogant thoughts.

That’s when I started reading a lot of books in a quest to find the answer as to who or what is this GOD? Through these books, I came to know about Mahavatar Babaji, Shirdi Sai Baba, Swami Rama and many others. During my initial years of these readings, whenever I had a question in my mind, somehow the answer to that question would come to me in the form of some chapter in some book, or some quotes online. Initially I thought it was just a coincidence. And then this started happening more frequently. All my questions started getting answered through some means. That’s when faith in an unknown, unseen power started growing in me. I then realized, the answer to most of my questions can also be got through a Guru. I also read, that seekers in the past had struggled so much to find their masters. I was not sure how to find a Guru. I can’t go to the Himalayas in search of my guru leaving my family responsibilities. But the divine had other plans.

Out of sheer coincidence (or is it?), I happened to get hold of the book – Living with the Himalayan masters – By Swami Rama. The book gave me a perspective of how saints operate and how to recognize true saints.

The urge to meet the real saints was only intensifying in me after reading this book. During this time (coincidence again?) on Facebook, slowly started reading about Mohanji through common friends posts and was extremely drawn towards his teachings and him. I also read a lot of testimonials/experience sharing of other people about him on Mohanji sites online. I would just devour them like a hungry child. I wouldn’t leave even one article. It was astonishing to see, that at this digital/modern age, such masters existed and through him various people were experiencing miracles in their lives along with meeting many other highly elevated saints too. Staying in city like Bangalore, all these were like unheard of for me. The urge to meet him was only intensifying every day.

Finally one day, I came to know that Mohanji is in Bangalore through a common friend. I just couldn’t believe it and so wanted to meet him. But I was in a dilemma if I have to meet him, and lot of other doubts lingering in me. Finally there was a strong urge or never felt before pull towards the meeting. Somehow with a lot of apprehension (though I strongly wanted to meet him) I finally made it to the place where he was to arrive.

I stepped into the house, where the satsang was scheduled. Saw a lot of people but dint find him in the hall. I was told that he was inside a room, speaking to a person one on one. So we all were advised to start POP meditation. There were a lot of people, so I sat in a chair, right opposite to the sofa where Mohanji was supposed to sit. The living room where we all were sitting was dimly lit, with lamps at different corners of the place glowing beautifully. There was this beautiful fragrance of the incense sticks and the camphor. We all slowly closed our eyes. There was silence and felt so much peaceful, in spite of so many people who had gathered there. I did my first POP meditation that day, and it was just out of the world. It was pure joy, bliss and love. The meditation just ended and I was still bathing in that blissful state. Mohanji asked us to keep our eyes closed. There was a beautiful bhajan which was played. While listening to that song, I had this immense urge to cry. I wanted to control my tears. It was a new setup, new people. But my heart wouldn’t listen. With my eyes closed, I could hear my souls cry. My soul knew that this is the man, who will take me from here (I am like what?? What are you saying? Take from here to where?? All this was new to me). After the song ended, we slowly opened our eyes. The room was still in that low lighting. And I see Mohanji sitting directly in front of me in white robes. It was a divine sight so beautifully etched in my heart even now. I felt it was the darshan of the divine himself. He had this beautiful smile on his face. He dint speak anything, but just looking at all of us, with the lovely smile of his. It was a magical moment. My heart was racing at the sight of him. I have finally met the master I so longed to meet. I forgot all my apprehensions, doubts etc. I was totally bathed in divine love. There was a strange recognition of Mohanji like I have met him before. But when – I don’t remember in this lifetime at least. There was this longing to just go with him, without any concern for the world, and just travel across the ocean of existence with him. That was the first time, I felt I could hear my souls cry. It felt caged in this body and wanted freedom. I don’t know what freedom it was asking for. I felt that only he would help me cross this ocean. It longed to be with him, hold his hand, rest in his abode of Peace and Love. Devotion just poured out of my heart, which was until then unknown to me. I was more or less like an atheist. That day I got the first Shaktipat from Mohanji. I dint feel anything at that time. But while driving back home, I cried a lot. I dint know why. Immediately there was a song playing in the radio, which I was hearing for the first time. The lyrics roughly translated to – “Let me make this clear to you – I can’t be without you, you have no idea about my love to you, am waiting for you and you are my life”. My cries just intensified because I knew from deep within, it was the master who was telling these words to me. What indescribable joy!!!!!! After the crying episode I felt so much lighter. Next day when I went to office, I felt immense peace and happiness. I dint know how to handle it. It was too much of joy to handle. I was seeing Mohanji in all my colleagues and team members. The joy was boundless. I was going mad with happiness. I couldn’t work too. By afternoon it became too much. I silently prayed to Mohanji that I can’t handle so much happiness and I might go mad. The feeling instantly reduced and I was back to normal (or what we think is normal). 🙂 The joy was there but a lot more manageable 🙂

Life has never been the same again. Not that materialistically anything changed. But I was slowly transforming into a different and better person. It was like someone had lit the light within me which was totally dark before.

After Life

After the first meeting, life had never been the same again. I started going to the POP Meditations in Preethi Duggals house regularly. I was so drawn to these meditations like nothing else. Come what may, I would not miss these sessions. Each and every session was a different experience. Being with Mohanjis family was another blessing from Mohanji. It was so selfless, with unconditional love. Everyone is accepted the way they are. After a week’s stress and strain in the outer world, the meditation was transformational in true sense. Every time I would come out a new fresh happy individual. We would always feel the presence of Mohanji during the meditations, and I knew internally that he is continuously working on us tirelessly. I started noticing a visible change in me. I was having much more patience, was being objective about things, less emotional about the events that happened, but looked at things as it is, without feeling victimized. Such is the stature of the master. I also got to meet Mohanji at various occasions. Just one look at Mohanji or being in his vicinity was like soaking in the bliss. My questions about various things in life decreased rapidly. When we were with him, I just wanted to sit in silence in his vicinity. I couldn’t ask for more. No queries, no answers. Just silence healed. Just the look of the master healed.